Pressing On, Still

I continue to receive good reports from those who have been touched and inspired by my story of forgiveness and hope. Such reports always give me great joy, and I give thanks to the Lord Jesus because He is the one who's doing this...

Yet while such news about my testimony is encouraging, I am still in a spiritual rut. Not only am I weary and exhausted in my body and mind, but I am feeling more confined than ever in the chapel setting. It's a paradox, I know. Because while I am supposed to be content in whatever circumstances or situations I may be in, there is an increasing restlessness and a growing dissatisfaction in my heart. But this could be a good thing. It may be God's way of preparing me for change.

Yes, I confess to sometimes feeling frustrated. And I cannot say that this is caused by any one thing. But I am longing for new challenges in the realm of ministry. I am tired of the predictable. After awhile certain routines begin to get stale, at least they do for me. And I think that many of my readers know what I'm talking about from their own experiences in church and in service to the Lord. Some of us need new challenges and fresh opportunities, while others relish the sense of security and safety that comes with sitting in the boat, so to speak.

Living by habit and tradition, and being able to say, "But we've always done things this way," can be comforting for some, but disturbing for others. As for me, I am the disturbed. Without a fresh vision, I will perish.

D.B.