Being a servant of the Lord Jesus Christ is what my life is now about...
However, because of the wide spectrum of troublesome experiences I had to endure, beginning in childhood and continuing into early adulthood - things such as severe depression and suicidal thoughts, false guilt and issues with anger, an intense fear of rejection, Attention Deficit, Hyperactivity Disorder, plus satanic involvement and a fascination with Satan and the occult - to call myself a "survivor" would be an understatement.
I also know that, because of these things, I can better understand and discern the behind-the-scenes operations of evil spirits in someone’s life. How such beings can bring about mental illness and behavioral disorders in their victims. How they could also incite some to act out violently.
A greater majority of people never had to deal with these situations, but I have. Yet when I tried to explain this to mental health professionals, law enforcement personnel, or the media, I was met with scorn and disbelief. I was labeled as “crazy” by those whom, in my opinion, chose to deliberately discount what I was telling them, mostly because it conflicted with what they wanted to believe.
The result? More than forty years later, the public remains as ignorant as ever about the causes and motives for the Son of Sam shootings.
I was seeking to please demons. I believed I was giving them what they wanted. Fresh blood. My hallucinations were real. I’d been worshiping the devil. Using LSD only made things worse. I was a lost and tormented soul.
That I am in my right mind today, having gone through so many bad experiences, is a miracle. I’m a man who’s been forgiven by God. It’s a testimony to Christ’s power to rescue and redeem a person from the grip of the enemy (Psalm 107:2).
And I confess my sins and crimes in humility. I know that I do not deserve to be forgiven, nor even to be alive, but thanks be to God!
D.B.
I also know that, because of these things, I can better understand and discern the behind-the-scenes operations of evil spirits in someone’s life. How such beings can bring about mental illness and behavioral disorders in their victims. How they could also incite some to act out violently.
A greater majority of people never had to deal with these situations, but I have. Yet when I tried to explain this to mental health professionals, law enforcement personnel, or the media, I was met with scorn and disbelief. I was labeled as “crazy” by those whom, in my opinion, chose to deliberately discount what I was telling them, mostly because it conflicted with what they wanted to believe.
The result? More than forty years later, the public remains as ignorant as ever about the causes and motives for the Son of Sam shootings.
I was seeking to please demons. I believed I was giving them what they wanted. Fresh blood. My hallucinations were real. I’d been worshiping the devil. Using LSD only made things worse. I was a lost and tormented soul.
That I am in my right mind today, having gone through so many bad experiences, is a miracle. I’m a man who’s been forgiven by God. It’s a testimony to Christ’s power to rescue and redeem a person from the grip of the enemy (Psalm 107:2).
And I confess my sins and crimes in humility. I know that I do not deserve to be forgiven, nor even to be alive, but thanks be to God!
D.B.
