At approximately 11:30 yesterday morning, the telephone near the officer's desk in my cellblock rang…
Seconds later, the officer called out my name.
When I reported to his desk, he told me that I had a visitor. I immediately became concerned because I was not expecting anyone. So I kindly asked the guard if he would call the visiting room so that I could learn the name of the person who had come to see me. The visiting room officer then told my cellblock officer, who in turn told me, the name of my visitor. I instantly recognized it as a reporter from a major New York City tabloid. I then informed the cellblock officer that I wished to decline the visit.
I was both annoyed and disappointed by this. I just don't understand why, after twenty-six years of incarceration, the media still tries to pursue me. I have nothing against the media. But I do not have anything to say to them, either.
I have learned, through several sad experiences, that the news media really isn't interested in my life today as a remorseful person and as a Christian. In recent years, I had shared some positive things with them, only to have my comments twisted around in the cut and splice world of news production.
Now I wish they would leave me alone. Thankfully, most of them are doing this, with a few exceptions.
By God's grace, I have moved on with my life. I have continuous sorrow over the past, for the horrible things I did, and for the people whom I hurt. I cannot however do anything about this. All the wishing in the world will not change anything.
I cannot look back anymore. I must continue to look ahead.
D.B.
When I reported to his desk, he told me that I had a visitor. I immediately became concerned because I was not expecting anyone. So I kindly asked the guard if he would call the visiting room so that I could learn the name of the person who had come to see me. The visiting room officer then told my cellblock officer, who in turn told me, the name of my visitor. I instantly recognized it as a reporter from a major New York City tabloid. I then informed the cellblock officer that I wished to decline the visit.
I was both annoyed and disappointed by this. I just don't understand why, after twenty-six years of incarceration, the media still tries to pursue me. I have nothing against the media. But I do not have anything to say to them, either.
I have learned, through several sad experiences, that the news media really isn't interested in my life today as a remorseful person and as a Christian. In recent years, I had shared some positive things with them, only to have my comments twisted around in the cut and splice world of news production.
Now I wish they would leave me alone. Thankfully, most of them are doing this, with a few exceptions.
By God's grace, I have moved on with my life. I have continuous sorrow over the past, for the horrible things I did, and for the people whom I hurt. I cannot however do anything about this. All the wishing in the world will not change anything.
I cannot look back anymore. I must continue to look ahead.
D.B.
