I Remember

And He that sat upon the throne said, 
Behold, I make all things new.
Revelation 21:5a
 
There are some things that are hard to express and painful to remember…

Today has been a time of mourning and reflection for me. The tragic period of 1976-77, is, as a whole, a dim memory for me. I do not dwell on it, and because it is in the past, there is nothing I could ever do to change anything.
 
I do, however, remember that it was exactly twenty-seven years ago today that I took the life of a young woman who did not deserve to die. Her death was senseless and brutal, and I would do anything if I could undo the crime. But like the past itself, I cannot undo it.
 
And I have not forgotten to pray for her family. Before I went to bed last night, I prayed for them. Then, when I awoke in the middle of the night, I got down on my knees and prayed once more.
 
I asked the Lord to comfort their hearts and ease their pain and grief. They continue to suffer, and I have not forgotten them.
 
I still remember what I did to devastate their lives, and I am so very sorry. I am looking forward to the day when there will no longer be death or pain, or sorrow and mourning, or any evil. For the Lord Jesus has promised to make all things new.
 
I long for this day.
 
D.B.