In yesterday's journal entry I wrote about how far the Lord has brought me since that dark time in years past when I was engulfed in evil, insanity and demonism...
It was a nightmare. I've much regret over my criminal past as well as my years of emotional struggles and inner torment which caused damage in my relationships with others, to include those of my own family.
Looking back, I'm convinced that Satan tried hard to destroy me. First, he began to work in my mind through depression, confusion, and insanity. Then he tried to destroy my body and ultimately steal my soul by trying to lure me into committing suicide.
Thankfully for my sake, it was not to be. For reasons unknown to me, the Lord, I believe, was like an unseen hand watching over me during those times of deep despair.
Today, however, I can see the bigger picture. Like the popular "Footprints in the Sand" poem where an individual was being carried along by the Lord without his being aware of it, I can say the same thing. It's only because of the Lord's mercy that I was not destroyed, and am still alive. His mercy and compassion is unending. Lamentations 3:26.
D.B.
Looking back, I'm convinced that Satan tried hard to destroy me. First, he began to work in my mind through depression, confusion, and insanity. Then he tried to destroy my body and ultimately steal my soul by trying to lure me into committing suicide.
Thankfully for my sake, it was not to be. For reasons unknown to me, the Lord, I believe, was like an unseen hand watching over me during those times of deep despair.
Today, however, I can see the bigger picture. Like the popular "Footprints in the Sand" poem where an individual was being carried along by the Lord without his being aware of it, I can say the same thing. It's only because of the Lord's mercy that I was not destroyed, and am still alive. His mercy and compassion is unending. Lamentations 3:26.
D.B.
