Intimacy

Henceforth I call you not servants...
but I have called you friends...
John 15:15

Tonight I plan to spend a quiet evening in my cell. It's going to be just me and Jesus alone together...

He's my Lord and Savior, and He in turn calls me His friend. Christ, I believe in my heart, is a companion who's closer to me than even a flesh and blood brother would be, if I had one.

This evening, I plan to open my heart to the Lord and tell Him how much I seem to be struggling these days with different issues. In addition, I want to become more intimate with the Lord. I sense the desire deep within my soul to renew my relationship with him like it was in the early days when I was a new Christian, and I was fresh in the faith. Back then, Jesus was, without a doubt, my "first" love. My heart was fixed on Him and my soul was overwhelmed with rivers of joy.

But alas, the trials of life and my ever busy schedule. I've lost something. Intimacy.

I must, therefore, open my heart to Jesus and allow Him to search inside me. I want my heart to remain pure and devoted, and not so easily distracted with the cares of the church or by anything else.

So tonight it will be me and Jesus alone. I've got several songs that I want to sing to Him. I have many words to say. It's going to be a wonderful time as I bask in the presence of the Lord.

D.B.