It doesn't seem like a new year at all...
On New Year's Eve, my cellblock was very quiet. There's a whole different atmosphere now than last year at this time. Most of the prisoners seemed very subdued. I think there is a sense of something in the air, not of a prison disturbance or anything like this, but it's something else. I cannot describe this feeling or sense of something or other than it being some kind of inner knowing that life is changing in America.
There's a different attitude now, especially since the 9/11 terrorist attacks as well as our ever-worsening economic situation. The men can pick up these vibes, I believe. We just know and sense that 2003 may be different for us and for America than previous years.
I know I am being vague. Maybe I'm not making sense. But there are changes that are taking place in society now, and the men know this. There is an uneasiness beneath the smiles on faces and the "business as usual" attitude of the Prison administration.
Meanwhile, I thank the Lord for seeing me through another year. I have passed through a series of spiritual storms, and no doubt there will be more to come.
I ask the Lord to continue to use my life for His glory, as well as to be a blessing to others. And as always, I pray for the families of the victims of my crimes. They are entering another year without their loved one, and I am responsible for causing these people so much pain along with grief that will never go away.
I cannot change the past, but I wish that I could. May the future be better for them.
D.B.
There's a different attitude now, especially since the 9/11 terrorist attacks as well as our ever-worsening economic situation. The men can pick up these vibes, I believe. We just know and sense that 2003 may be different for us and for America than previous years.
I know I am being vague. Maybe I'm not making sense. But there are changes that are taking place in society now, and the men know this. There is an uneasiness beneath the smiles on faces and the "business as usual" attitude of the Prison administration.
Meanwhile, I thank the Lord for seeing me through another year. I have passed through a series of spiritual storms, and no doubt there will be more to come.
I ask the Lord to continue to use my life for His glory, as well as to be a blessing to others. And as always, I pray for the families of the victims of my crimes. They are entering another year without their loved one, and I am responsible for causing these people so much pain along with grief that will never go away.
I cannot change the past, but I wish that I could. May the future be better for them.
D.B.
