As I wrote in yesterday's journal entry, when it comes to suffering…
...my birth mother Betty was one of those within my own family who suffered the most. She was truly a lady of sorrows.
Not only did she see the son she loved go to prison for life, but she also experienced an array of media driven stories about her and my relationship to her, that were untrue. As a result, to add to her pain came feelings of false guilt, and needless shame, and the humiliation which came from all this.
Unfortunately for my mother Betty, this was to be her fate. She had to cope with losing the child she loved. While in the years which followed, she had to hear the cruel and callous speculations from a host of "know it alls," who paraded themselves as "experts" in their fields.
These proud professionals, whom I assume were relishing in the media attention that was being given to them, simply wove their personal thoughts and beliefs around the woman who brought me into the world. Some also took advantage of me in my then mentally weakened state of mind, as well.
Yet a majority of these individuals had never even met nor communicated with me at all. Still, they did not hesitate one bit when they stood in front of cameras and microphones, to blab away with their speculations and personal theories. What ignorance!
If anyone would like more information on this and wishes to learn the truth about the relationship my mother and I had, I would encourage you to try and locate the lengthy feature article which appeared in Good Housekeeping magazine in November 1978.
The title of the article was: "The Startling Story of Son of Sam's Real Mother." It was a thorough and revealing account of my birth mother's relationship with me. It's eleven pages in length.
The article contains my mother's words, not mine. Neither were these the media's words, nor the foolish opinions and guesses of those "ready for hire" know-nothings.
D.B.
Not only did she see the son she loved go to prison for life, but she also experienced an array of media driven stories about her and my relationship to her, that were untrue. As a result, to add to her pain came feelings of false guilt, and needless shame, and the humiliation which came from all this.
Unfortunately for my mother Betty, this was to be her fate. She had to cope with losing the child she loved. While in the years which followed, she had to hear the cruel and callous speculations from a host of "know it alls," who paraded themselves as "experts" in their fields.
These proud professionals, whom I assume were relishing in the media attention that was being given to them, simply wove their personal thoughts and beliefs around the woman who brought me into the world. Some also took advantage of me in my then mentally weakened state of mind, as well.
Yet a majority of these individuals had never even met nor communicated with me at all. Still, they did not hesitate one bit when they stood in front of cameras and microphones, to blab away with their speculations and personal theories. What ignorance!
If anyone would like more information on this and wishes to learn the truth about the relationship my mother and I had, I would encourage you to try and locate the lengthy feature article which appeared in Good Housekeeping magazine in November 1978.
The title of the article was: "The Startling Story of Son of Sam's Real Mother." It was a thorough and revealing account of my birth mother's relationship with me. It's eleven pages in length.
The article contains my mother's words, not mine. Neither were these the media's words, nor the foolish opinions and guesses of those "ready for hire" know-nothings.
D.B.
