"Forget the former things;
do not dwell on the past..."
Isaiah 43:18
The Lord knows how much hurt and pain I have on the inside...
do not dwell on the past..."
Isaiah 43:18
The Lord knows how much hurt and pain I have on the inside...
He sees my broken heart, my regrets and sorrow. He also knows of my desire to do whatever I can to make amends for past crimes. He understands the grief I have, not only for the senseless loss of so many lives, but also for the heartache I caused my own family, as well as the wreckage it brought to our relationship.
God likewise knows how defensive I am towards my loved ones, even though I have long since been estranged from them. So after more than forty years of hearing and seeing what an array of "experts" continue to spew forth as facts, especially when it comes to my birth family, I just cannot remain silent.
Actually, I have come to their defense many times. Whenever I was given the opportunity, be it an interview or through my personal writings, I have tried to carefully explain to both the media and the public, that neither the circumstances of my birth, nor my family situation, had anything to do with the "Son of Sam" crime spree.
Yet within the past year or two, a bevy of new crime shows have surfaced with the usual parade of "talking heads" who think they know everything. And once again it's always the same nonsense and misinformation. They will blame the crimes on my adoption and my having been born out of wedlock. Sadly, their speculations and accusations will usually point to my birth mother, thus causing her to experience emotional trauma and needless guilt.
I would listen to and watch these know-nothings with disgust. But I will also try, whenever I can, to correct all the untruths these individuals may say. For example, in my journal writings for this month, readers could see for themselves all the time, effort, and energy I have put into defending my family, especially my birth mother.
However, as I was recently spending time in prayer, I believe the Lord spoke firmly but tenderly to my inner spirit, saying, "David, it's time to get on with your life." His words were both timely and refreshing. It's time to let go of the past, and for me to stop trying, as well-meaning as my intentions are, to fix and correct all the misinformation that's out there.
My loving heavenly Father made it clear to me that in due time He will allow the truth to come out. He also reminded me that He is my defense. The Lord is the shield of my salvation. He is my strength in times of stress.
Yes, I am bothered by all the lies that are out there. I have been deeply vexed by the foolish comments of so-called "professionals" who so arrogantly pronounce their opinions, which are merely guesses.
In a courtroom setting, they would not be allowed to get away with it. Why? Because they would be cross-examined and challenged. They would be forced to present to the court and all who are in attendance, proof that what they are saying is more than speculation, it is fact. And this they cannot do.
D.B.
God likewise knows how defensive I am towards my loved ones, even though I have long since been estranged from them. So after more than forty years of hearing and seeing what an array of "experts" continue to spew forth as facts, especially when it comes to my birth family, I just cannot remain silent.
Actually, I have come to their defense many times. Whenever I was given the opportunity, be it an interview or through my personal writings, I have tried to carefully explain to both the media and the public, that neither the circumstances of my birth, nor my family situation, had anything to do with the "Son of Sam" crime spree.
Yet within the past year or two, a bevy of new crime shows have surfaced with the usual parade of "talking heads" who think they know everything. And once again it's always the same nonsense and misinformation. They will blame the crimes on my adoption and my having been born out of wedlock. Sadly, their speculations and accusations will usually point to my birth mother, thus causing her to experience emotional trauma and needless guilt.
I would listen to and watch these know-nothings with disgust. But I will also try, whenever I can, to correct all the untruths these individuals may say. For example, in my journal writings for this month, readers could see for themselves all the time, effort, and energy I have put into defending my family, especially my birth mother.
However, as I was recently spending time in prayer, I believe the Lord spoke firmly but tenderly to my inner spirit, saying, "David, it's time to get on with your life." His words were both timely and refreshing. It's time to let go of the past, and for me to stop trying, as well-meaning as my intentions are, to fix and correct all the misinformation that's out there.
My loving heavenly Father made it clear to me that in due time He will allow the truth to come out. He also reminded me that He is my defense. The Lord is the shield of my salvation. He is my strength in times of stress.
Yes, I am bothered by all the lies that are out there. I have been deeply vexed by the foolish comments of so-called "professionals" who so arrogantly pronounce their opinions, which are merely guesses.
In a courtroom setting, they would not be allowed to get away with it. Why? Because they would be cross-examined and challenged. They would be forced to present to the court and all who are in attendance, proof that what they are saying is more than speculation, it is fact. And this they cannot do.
D.B.
