I am now beginning to sense something of what my Lord went through when He was facing the cross...
…perplexity at the pain to come, yet eager to fulfill the Father's will. For many months now, this has been my mindset. I dread tomorrow. I have been praying and seeking God's will. I have been waiting day after day for a sure answer from Him. So I shared my dilemma with yesterday afternoon's Bible class. The brothers then gathered around me to pray that I would know the Lord's will in this situation.
For a part of me wants to go before the parole board to apologize and share some things from my heart. Yet another part says to avoid this discomforting situation. In fact, I have been in agony of soul debating within my own mind just what to do.
One younger brother spoke up and said that he felt it was the Lord's will that I go to the hearing. That I should tell them personally what Christ has done in my life. I do, of course, have the option (by law) to either attend or refuse to attend this hearing.
In my own spirit I feel that I should go. The parole board already knows that I am not seeking release. However, even at this late hour, with the interview on the horizon for tomorrow morning, I am still uncertain of what the Lord wants. Basically, as it now stands, I am going to wait in faith. I will do what the Holy Spirit presses upon my heart to do, whether to go or to decline. May God's will be done.
D.B.
For a part of me wants to go before the parole board to apologize and share some things from my heart. Yet another part says to avoid this discomforting situation. In fact, I have been in agony of soul debating within my own mind just what to do.
One younger brother spoke up and said that he felt it was the Lord's will that I go to the hearing. That I should tell them personally what Christ has done in my life. I do, of course, have the option (by law) to either attend or refuse to attend this hearing.
In my own spirit I feel that I should go. The parole board already knows that I am not seeking release. However, even at this late hour, with the interview on the horizon for tomorrow morning, I am still uncertain of what the Lord wants. Basically, as it now stands, I am going to wait in faith. I will do what the Holy Spirit presses upon my heart to do, whether to go or to decline. May God's will be done.
D.B.