"To every thing there is a season, and a time to every purpose under the heaven..."
Ecclesiastes 3:1
One thing I hope to see accomplished and something I have been fervently praying for...
Ecclesiastes 3:1
One thing I hope to see accomplished and something I have been fervently praying for...
...is the healing of those whom I have hurt in the past, the victims of my crimes. They are the survivors of this horrible tragedy. God knows that I would do everything within my power to go back and change things, to have prevented what had happened. I cannot do this. No one can go back and undo their mistakes.
Yes, I have so much regret, grief, shame, and sorrow over my past actions. Jesus Christ knows this, and I am fully confident in His word that He has forgiven me totally and completely. And I no longer have to be eaten away by these feelings. The Lord has given me His peace. His peace is not something that I deserve. I do not deserve it and I never will. But the Bible assures me that God's peace is available to all who place their trust in Him, and this includes me!
Furthermore, Christ has shown me over time how to take the painful feelings of regret, grief, shame and sorrow, and turn them into positive things. In every TV or radio interview I was able to give since the INSIDE EDITION program of 1993, I have always expressed my remorse and sorrow for what I had done. And I thank God for the opportunities to do this.
In every way possible I have publicly expressed my shame, sorrow and regret. I have said that I am sorry again and again. And this year, I hope to be able to reach out to some of my victims, as the Lord makes a way. I want to express to each family (privately) my apologies, and to ask for their forgiveness.
A minister from a large church in Brooklyn, New York, has offered his help in reaching out to these crime victims. This is a sensitive and delicate thing which not only requires much prayer, but also much wisdom. I am waiting for the right time.
There were times when I wanted to do this several years ago, but then came the hindrances such as the "Summer of Sam" movie, and the related media publicity which went to humongous levels. Old wounds were reopened. So all I could do was to keep waiting.
Thus far, I have already written to one party. My letter was well received. This is a miracle and I truly believe that God went before me to open their heart. It does not mean they have forgiven me, but it is a start. And even if no one forgives me, I will still be thankful for the chance to have shared my sorrow and remorse with them. I know this is the right and honorable thing to do.
D.B.
Yes, I have so much regret, grief, shame, and sorrow over my past actions. Jesus Christ knows this, and I am fully confident in His word that He has forgiven me totally and completely. And I no longer have to be eaten away by these feelings. The Lord has given me His peace. His peace is not something that I deserve. I do not deserve it and I never will. But the Bible assures me that God's peace is available to all who place their trust in Him, and this includes me!
Furthermore, Christ has shown me over time how to take the painful feelings of regret, grief, shame and sorrow, and turn them into positive things. In every TV or radio interview I was able to give since the INSIDE EDITION program of 1993, I have always expressed my remorse and sorrow for what I had done. And I thank God for the opportunities to do this.
In every way possible I have publicly expressed my shame, sorrow and regret. I have said that I am sorry again and again. And this year, I hope to be able to reach out to some of my victims, as the Lord makes a way. I want to express to each family (privately) my apologies, and to ask for their forgiveness.
A minister from a large church in Brooklyn, New York, has offered his help in reaching out to these crime victims. This is a sensitive and delicate thing which not only requires much prayer, but also much wisdom. I am waiting for the right time.
There were times when I wanted to do this several years ago, but then came the hindrances such as the "Summer of Sam" movie, and the related media publicity which went to humongous levels. Old wounds were reopened. So all I could do was to keep waiting.
Thus far, I have already written to one party. My letter was well received. This is a miracle and I truly believe that God went before me to open their heart. It does not mean they have forgiven me, but it is a start. And even if no one forgives me, I will still be thankful for the chance to have shared my sorrow and remorse with them. I know this is the right and honorable thing to do.
D.B.