Unfortunately, things have not been working out between Mrs. Moskowitz and myself...
There has been a setback in our relationship. A lot of healing and forgiveness had taken place in previous months (see Journal entries for Dec. 8, 2001 and Jan. 4, 2002). Now, things seem to have reversed themselves.
Mrs. Moskowitz wanted me to participate in a media project where we would have to go before a live camera and meet together for the first time. I was tempted to do this for her sake. The producer was going to pay her something, and I have no idea how much. It's none of my business. For I get no compensation and would never want anything. My only desire would be to glorify the Lord. But after much prayer about this matter over several months of time, the Lord did not give me a go ahead in my spirit to say “Okay.” Thus, she was very disappointed and angry. But in spite of her protests to me, I had to tell her, “No, thank you.”
Now, sadly, Mrs. Moskowitz is livid with anger, and she's gone back to hating me. She hasn't answered my last few letters and has been swearing at me when she talks with our mutual Christian friend, Betty. This is a sorrowful situation, and my heart has been heavy over everything. So much effort and so many prayers have gone into this relationship and for Mrs. Moskowitz’s healing. I will continue to pray for her, yet I feel as if ten years have been lost, that we've moved backwards to the days when she openly railed against me.
Ultimately, God can turn any situation around. I had to do what I believed in my heart to be right. I must live to please God only, and not be a “people pleaser.”
D.B.
Mrs. Moskowitz wanted me to participate in a media project where we would have to go before a live camera and meet together for the first time. I was tempted to do this for her sake. The producer was going to pay her something, and I have no idea how much. It's none of my business. For I get no compensation and would never want anything. My only desire would be to glorify the Lord. But after much prayer about this matter over several months of time, the Lord did not give me a go ahead in my spirit to say “Okay.” Thus, she was very disappointed and angry. But in spite of her protests to me, I had to tell her, “No, thank you.”
Now, sadly, Mrs. Moskowitz is livid with anger, and she's gone back to hating me. She hasn't answered my last few letters and has been swearing at me when she talks with our mutual Christian friend, Betty. This is a sorrowful situation, and my heart has been heavy over everything. So much effort and so many prayers have gone into this relationship and for Mrs. Moskowitz’s healing. I will continue to pray for her, yet I feel as if ten years have been lost, that we've moved backwards to the days when she openly railed against me.
Ultimately, God can turn any situation around. I had to do what I believed in my heart to be right. I must live to please God only, and not be a “people pleaser.”
D.B.