April 2010

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Good Friday Service "Sit Still" Injured Suffering Walking by Faith, and Pain...
Crutches Praying for Cities My Father's Long Life (Part I) My Father's Long Life (Part II)


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Written by David Berkowitz


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April 2 - Good Friday Service

After this, Jesus knowing that all things
were now accomplished, that the scripture
might be fulfilled, saith, "I thirst."

John 19:28



I was never a religious person, and I am not one now. Rather I am a believer in the Lord Jesus, whom I know to be the Messiah of the Jews and Savior to the Gentiles. Christ offers salvation to all who place their faith in Him. And I am not one for religious traditions or for holding certain days in a special regard. However, I have no objections to those who do.

Nevertheless, many Christians consider Good Friday to be sacred. So, as is our custom here at the prison, this morning we held a worship service in the chapel. And my assignment was to give and approximately five minute talk on John 19:28-29 where Christ uttered the words, "I thirst."

I therefore explained to the congregation how that when one of the Roman soldiers heard Jesus say this from the cross, he took a sponge mixed with vinegar and spices and passed it up to Christ for the Lord to wet His mouth. The Lord died almost immediately afterwards. However I added that there was more to this story besides Christ being thirsty because He was in tremendous pain and His throat was parched. I said that God's Son was actually thirsting for His heavenly Father, and not for mere water.

Christ thirsted for God, because at this very moment, Jesus was taking all our sins upon Himself and it was these sins, I said, that caused Christ to experience a deep sense of separation between Himself and His heavenly Father. This had never happened to Jesus before. Thus His thirst was more spiritual in nature than it was physical, although I'm sure His physical desire for water was intense, too.

In a similar way, I explained to the congregation, when we are without God, and when we are far from Him because of our sins, we too thirst. Yet in our ignorance and spiritual blindness we try to satisfy our inner thirst in the wrong ways. This was the story of my life before I repented of my sins and placed my faith in the Lord Jesus. Now, thanks to God, out of my innermost being flows a river of living water. I thirst no more.

D.B.


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April 11 - "Sit Still!"

He maketh me to lie down in
green pastures...

Psalm 23:2a



This is not the first time I got up on a Sunday morning expecting to do my usual routine, only to find myself with a mysterious ailment. Everything was fine when I went to bed last night. But now I'm in excruciating pain. I can barely walk, and I must lean against a wall or another solid object in order to get around. Somehow I managed to injure my left ankle, and I don't know how.

Every Sunday I usually awaken early in order to pray and read the Bible. I do this to prepare my heart and mind for church. But this morning I knew I wasn't going any place but back to bed.

Yet there must be a reason for God to have allowed this. And I believe the answer is for me to sit still. The Lord knows I need a rest. I'm a chronic workaholic and I'm often guilty of taking on too many jobs and projects. So the Good Shepherd of the 23rd Psalm did what He had to. He stopped me in my tracks. He's done it before. Now the Lord has done it again.

It's time for my body to rest.

D.B.


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April 12 - Injured



I have just returned from a trip to the Infirmary. The doctor said I somehow injured my Achilles tendon. I think I know how it happened. My job as a "mobility guide" for a prisoner who is completely blind and also suffers from serious mental health issues, and who likes to go outdoors a lot in the recreation yard, may have contributed to this. I've also been very tired, too.

The prisoner I'm assigned to is emotionally unstable and his behavior is unpredictable. There are times when I'll be walking alongside him, our arms locked together as I'm required to do, when without warning he would begin to jerk back and forth or sideways in a violent manner. And whenever he does this I'd have to keep a tight hold on him to prevent his possibly injuring himself. However this time his sudden moves caused injury to me.

He's such a sad case. He's been in prison for more than twenty-five years having lost both his eyes in a close range gun battle with an off duty New York City police officer. He was a teenager at the time. Regrettably the officer lost his life in the incident. Now a lifetime has gone by and this prisoner has to be led by the hand wherever he goes. Damage to some of his brain tissue has left him in something of partially vegetative state. I guess the Lord has me watching over him during the hours I'm assigned to him. However, until I'm able to get back on my feet someone else will have to guide him.

D.B.


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April 13 - Suffering

for I reckon that the suffering of this
present time are not worthy to be compared
with the glory which shall be revealed in us.

Romans 8:18



I just learned that a friend of mine whom I have been corresponding with for many years, and who has always been a source of spiritual encouragement to me, was recently diagnosed with Parkinson's disease. It's a progressive disease which primarily affects the nervous system.

Well I replied to her that it's not the end of her life. Instead this is an opportunity, I told her, to become more intimate with the Lord Jesus Christ than ever before. I said, "Debbie, nothing, not even sickness or death could separate you from God's love and from having a relationship with the Lord Jesus Christ."

She is already a Christian of strong faith and maturity. So Deb knows that what I told her is all true. I added, as well, that one day all of our sufferings will be over. Some golden daybreak Jesus will come for His church and we'll be instantly removed from this earth and ushered into a wonderful heaven to live with Christ, forever. And even if any of us should taste death first, I said to her, death has already lost its sting. For the unbeliever death is a tough thing because it represents the end of one's time on this earth. It means going into the unknown. But for the Christian, death is but a tiny and quick step into eternity, and into the presence of the Lord. Therefore, even in death the Christian comes out a winner. Amen!

D.B.


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April 18 - Walking by Faith, and Pain

For we walk by faith, not by sight.

II Corinthians 5:7



Last night, by the grace of God, I made it to church. I had to hobble a long ways using a pair of crutches. I had to climb a hill and stumble down a couple of corridors. I was in a lot of pain. But I made it.

Because of my injury I haven't been in church all week. So it was good to be back, and to be warmly greeted by both my fellow prisoners and the guests, the latter who traveled from New Jersey to fellowship with us.

Yet I was surprised when brother Philip, who is the assistant pastor, asked me to oversee the service. I was hoping he'd do it because I've been feeling weak. But Philip insisted. Therefore I hobbled my way to the pulpit, albeit reluctantly.

I opened the service with a prayer and then read a passage from Paul's letter to the Ephesians. I spoke for about seven minutes on spiritual warfare. And when I was finished I promptly handed the service over to our guests.

Later I joked that, while the Bible tells us to walk by faith, many times we'll find that a lot of pain gets added to this walk, which is what I've been experiencing right now in my own life. It's been a walk of faith mixed with plenty of physical pain. Everyone laughed at this. But it's true. The life of a Christian is by no means pain or problem free. However the good part is that Christ is with us. His grace is always more than sufficient for any situation.

D.B.


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April 20 - Crutches



For the moment I am under restricted movement until May 11th. This means that I am limited as to what I can and cannot do. The doctor wants me to stay off my feet as much a possible so the injured tendon could heal. For now, however, whenever I have to leave my cell I must travel with a pair of wooden crutches. And let me tell you, I hate those clumsy things. It feels as if I'm walking on stilts. Using crutches is no fun at all.

Fortunately I didn't end up in the hospital on prolonged bed rest. At least now I could use my typewriter whenever I need to. So I've been catching up on correspondence. One could only imagine the endless hours of boredom I'd be experiencing at this moment if I was trapped in the hospital.

D.B.


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April 22 - Praying for Cities

Evening, and morning, and at noon,
will I pray, and cry aloud: and He
shall hear my voice.

Psalm 55:17



During a time of prayer earlier today, I asked the Lord to move upon the heart of any man, woman, or child who is spiritually needy. Obviously this was a very broad and general prayer, but this was how the Lord led me this morning. I know that whether someone lives in a big city or a small one, or in a little town, people everywhere need the Lord.

Be it a struggle with sin, depression or loneliness, mental illness or physical sickness, or an addiction of any kind, Jesus Christ, I believe, is the only one who can provide the deliverance and hope that people need.

Meanwhile my left ankle is healing rapidly. Very soon I will be back on my feet, but I am thankful for several weeks of rest.

D.B.


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April 29 - My Father's Long Life (Part I)



My father has always possessed an easygoing, mild-mannered disposition coupled with a quiet sense of humor. I do not recall ever seeing him display uncontrolled anger or shouting, not even when I was an adolescent. I used to try very hard to provoke my father with my bad behavior and rebellious ways. But he would never lose his cool, although I certainly caused him a lot of grief and bitter bewilderment with my cruel ways, which I deeply regret.

In any event, my Dad seemed to know how to take life as it came. Born in 1910, he grew up in poverty on the Lower Side of Manhattan, which is a borough of New York City. Eventually, however, his parents managed to save enough money to move the family uptown to a middle class neighborhood in the East Nineties. Next came their move from Manhattan to a tenement in the Bronx.

My father's parents, like millions of European immigrants, made their way to the United States from Hungry in the 1890s. Like everyone else who landed on America's shore, there was the dreaded stop at the famed Ellis Island to be interviewed, inspected for diseases, and then processed by U.S. Customs officials before being allowed into the country. They came here in search of a better life.

My Dad would live through World War I and the Great Depression of 1929. He would serve in the U.S. Army during World War II where he was mostly stationed on the island of Guam in the South Pacific where the United States troops battled the Japanese.

Hardworking and practical, my father was handy with all kinds of tools. After the war he opened a small neighborhood hardware store in the Bronx where he was able to earn a modest living to support my mother and I. The name of the store was Burke's Hardware. It was located on East Gun Hill Road near Perry Avenue.

Later, however, after my mother passed away in 1967 at the age of fifty-two, my Dad sold the store and went into a partnership with a lifelong friend of his who owned the Selmore Hardware store which was then located at 802 Melrose Avenue in the heart of the crime ridden South Bronx. The store was a friendly outpost for people to shop at or to get advice on tools or paint in an otherwise impoverished ghetto. Sometimes after school or on Saturdays I would help in the store part-time. The local residents loved my Dad.

No doubt his calm demeanor and peaceful ways, plus his overall ability to take life as it came, probably helped to add years to his life. In addition, until only several years ago my father was an avid bowler. Once a week on Thursday evenings he would join his teammates at the local bowling alley on Bronx River Avenue where they would compete in a semi-pro league against other teams. My Dad's team was called "The Boilermakers." Bowling was my father's only recreation since he worked six days per week, ten hours per day. He had little time for leisure otherwise. He bowled until the age of 92, and he gave up the sport only because his physician suggested that at his age such and activity was too risky.

D.B.


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April 30 - My Father's Long Life (Part II)



The hardware store on Melrose Avenue was a busy place. The main thoroughfare, which was Melrose Avenue itself, always had a lot of pedestrian and vehicular traffic. So there was almost never a shortage of customers. I used to like having to go into the store's below ground cellar to retrieve big fifty pound bags of rock salt that customers would purchase whenever it snowed. The rock salt would be spread along the sidewalks to help keep people from slipping and falling. In addition I also liked it whenever someone would purchase one or more galvanized metal garbage cans, each with its own lid. These trash cans were a common sight as rows of them would routinely be lined up every morning in front of all the neighborhood's apartment buildings to await pickup by New York City's Department of Sanitation trucks. The cans were big sellers and I would get a workout having to carry them up from the store's basement, one at a time.

But my father's specialty was that he was a licensed locksmith. At the back of his store stood his workbench with a key maker and a grinder, plus hundreds of blank keys of all shapes and sizes hanging in rows along the store's rear wall, and waiting to be fitted and cut whenever a customer would need a new key.

My Dad also installed locks and security gates, and peepholes as well as door chains. Back then these were very popular items because almost every apartment in the neighborhood had at least several different key operated locks on the entry door to the apartment, as well as a safety peephole for someone to peek out from whenever their doorbell would ring.

Door chains too were an important security device to help stop a potential push in burglary. Because of the high rates of crime, residents would eagerly purchase these items to include the most popular of them all, the steel window gate. These heavy devices were my father's biggest seller. The gates would be installed in any window which faced a public fire escape. Such gates, when properly locked from the inside, kept out burglars. Unfortunately, sometimes they would also prevent firefighters from entering a burning apartment to rescue anyone who may be inside it. Locked window gates have always contributed to fire deaths.

I recall my father always carefully instructing the owner of a newly installed window gate not to lock the gate when they were inside the apartment, but to only lock it whenever they would leave. But all these devices, be they door locks or chains, or window gates helped to make life safer for people. And my dad and his partner did a brisk business with this.

I also remember sometimes going with my Dad, after he closed the store for the day, as he made his rounds to install these things. He carried a big tool box along with an electric drill. It took a lot of work to drill holes and to secure these devices into steel doors or along the sidings of window frames. I would help my Dad carry everything, and the window gates seemed to weigh a ton. I would help to hold the gates or the door lock as he would carefully screw and bolt the items into place. Anyone who lived in New York City during this period, especially in the so called "bad" neighborhoods, would be familiar with these products.

Now, all these years later, my father is about to turn 100 years old. I thank God that his health is good. He can still manage his own affairs. He can walk, and he's not sickly or bedridden. My Dad also likes to keep himself busy playing cards with his friends, reading and writing and fooling around with his computer. He is active and alert.

To be on this earth for a century is surely a gift from one's Creator. I am happy for him, and I hope he has many more years remaining. For my father it has been a long life well spent.

D.B.


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End of Journal for April 2010